Sixth Rerun - Sometimes you gotta lose to win

[speeding]

[Suddenly, the page containing this entry appears completely blacked out, as if dipped in a vat of ink!]

Comments

[iattractmushi]

...if it's not safe to talk about this, isn't it kind of stupid to write it in the journals where everyone can see it?

[speeding]

That's the point! I'm sick of playing smart. I'm tired of playing safe. It hasn't gotten any of us anywhere.

Maybe it's time to play stupid. The results are the same either way.

[iattractmushi]

[Pause]

I think you might just live longer the other way.

[speeding]

Yeah, I know. Key word is might. Everyone's scared of dying and forgetting.

Well you know what Cloud? It terrifies me too. But being scared doesn't mean I have to back away. Maybe it's smarter not to step up, but not fighting is always smarter. If you want to be safe.

A wise guy from my world said something like this once, "Those who give up their freedom for safety don't deserve either freedom or safety."

[iattractmushi]

We've already forgotten everything, and everyone dies.

This place isn't safe, I've already seen enough that I know that. I wouldn't call myself free, since there's barely anywhere I can go.

I just don't see the point of fighting openly if that will only make the inevitable happen faster.

[speeding]

So it's better to wait it out and prolong the inevitable? Pretend it's okay?

[iattractmushi]

As long as you're still alive, you can do something. That's the point, isn't it? Dead people can't do a thing.

[speeding]

I don't want to die! This isn't a suicide note, this is trying to wake people up. Playing good doesn't work.

[iattractmushi]

And playing stupid does?

[speeding]

Maybe not but but at least it's doing something.

[iattractmushi]

There has to be a better way than this--even if it takes longer.

Then again, what do I know? You've been here much longer than I have, after all.